I fall to my knees in the room I had created for the baby that was taken from me. I felt all of the emotions I felt from the night I found out she had an abortion. I feel all the emotions and I ball up my fists.
I hear Bella yell with agony when she fell from me.
“Take her. Take her back home. I never want to see you again, Bella. You… You just couldn’t leave shit alone!” I scream at her.
For the first time since that night of finding out my baby was killed, I cry.
I can hear Dragon talking to Bella to get her to leave the room with him.
“I’m so sorry, Beast. I’m so sorry!” She cries before leaving me.
Leaving me in the despair I was used to before finding Bella. For a brief moment, I thought I was finally going to get some solace. All of it is gone and now I’m kneeling in the room I refused to get rid of.
Bella
He had a beautiful nursery all set up in his house. There’s no pictures of any babies throughout his whole house. Where’s the baby at? What happened to the baby?
Seeing the mix between anger and hurt on Beast’s face is more than I can take.
I cried the whole way to my dad’s house with Dragon just shaking his head. I know he knows I’m heartbroken and he’s doing the best thing he can do for me right.
Not saying a word.
Every couple of minutes, he touches my knee to soothe me but nothing will soothe me. The pain of knowing I caused this much turmoil to Beast is like driving a stake to my heart.
“I didn’t know anything about that,” Dragon says softly when he pulls into the house where my dad lived.
The outside of the house looks like a battle took place in front of it with the bullet holes through the whole siding. There’s shell casings outside with police tape wrapped around the whole perimeter of the house.
Dragon doesn’t stop the car like I thought he would. “You’re not stayin’ here. I don’t care.”
I’ve lost everything. My mother, my home and Beast. More importantly, I lost Beast.
Dragon pulls into a motel’s parking lot, stopping and walking into the office to get a room for me. He opens the door to my side of the SUV. “I got you a room for a couple of nights until we can figure out something else. I would take you to my house, but I have a feeling Beast would fuckin’ kill me.”
“Why are you being so nice to me?” I ask him again like I did the first time I met him.
He kisses my forehead. “Because I know what it feels like to not have anyone on your side.”
I walk into the motel room, looking around at how depressing the whole room is. The bed looks like a piece of shit, I instantly miss Beast’s spare room. The bed was more comfortable than a cloud.
Dragon leaves me with a smirk and a wink. I welcome the silence of the room, pulling the covers off the bed to burrow myself in them. I’m more than willing to smother myself in hopes of dulling the pain.
Since this is a cheap motel I know the chances of a mini-bar are slim to none. I would have welcomed the numbing pain of an alcohol buzz. Anything that will drown out my thoughts of nothing and everything all at the same time.
I pull the pillow from the top of the bed, cradling it to my chest as I cry into it. How could I have been so stupid in blindly loving the man who wrecked me with only a short conversation? How could I have done this to myself?
Did I over look something that would have told me he wasn’t available emotionally? Did I over look everything we had and think it was something more? Obviously, he didn’t care about me like I thought he did.
Nothing can hurt me more than Beast at this moment.
The motel’s phone is ringing in the room, but I do not unbarricade myself to answer it. The thought of talking to anyone right now is more than I can bare.
What if it’s Beast asking me if I know where my dad is? What if it’s Prince telling me how I was just a piece of ass and a consolation prize?
Why did I have to squeeze my eyes so tightly and fall in love with the monster of a man? Why did I fall in love with someone who would never love me back? Who knew fate could be that cruel.
Beast
