“Barf!” Teddy exclaimed from the other room.
Then before he could stop himself he got lost in the moment and words erupted from his throat like the worst kind of Vesuvius.
“I love you.” Jacob blurted out, his eyes going wide as he said it.Fuck- now he’d said it first. Did that mean he meant it?
“I love you too.” Joe said before pulling Jacob in for a big kiss. As Joe walked away, and Jacob settled into making the waffles, Teddy fluttered back in.
“Don’t say anything.” Jacob ordered. Teddy ignored him as usual.
“You said it first.” Teddy mocked.
“I know.” Jacob said. “Fuck- what if I actually love him?”
“How can you? It’s been like…a week?”
“Not even.” Jacob said, shaking his head. Fuck. What was he supposed to do now?
“You can’t love anyone that quickly.” Teddy responded. “You might think you do, but you probably don’t.”
“You’re right- but then- I don’t know. I just can’t believe I said it first. That’s not me reflecting his feelings. Those are mine. That’s me having those feelings. I don’t care if it’s just an infatuation- but this…” He paused halfway through cracking the eggs. “What if I actually feel something more?”
“Try not to. At least not until you know what his feelings are.” Teddy responded.
“I know what his feelings are.” Jacob pondered.
“Not really. You know what his enchanted feelings are. His real feelings could be something much different.”
“I’m making his coffee. I can just…keep it going.” Jacob said as he eyed the drink.
“Is that what you want?” Teddy enquired.
“No. Of course not.” Jacob frowned. “But I- I don’t want to lose him.”
“Can you really lose something you never had?” Teddy said. “If you do this, you’ll never really know if you had him or not.”
“Well at least I’ll know that I’ve got him today. Maybe that’s enough.”
“This is a slippery slope, Jacob. I can’t recommend it.”
“Teddy, it’s one day. It’s just one day…” Jacob said, as he prepared to make Joe’s coffee. “ I can do it just one more time…This is fine. Things will be fine.”
“What happens if it’s too strong? Are you ready for obsession? What if it kills him?”
Jacob pondered for a moment. He could feel the energy floating in him. He could dose him for one more day. That would solve things for now.
He could feel the thought start in his brain, work it’s way down his arm and float in the palm of his hand. With a thought he could compel the thought into his coffee. Be mine. You love me. You need me. With one push, Joe could be his.
But he froze. No, he couldn’t keep doing this. The love spell had already lasted longer than he expected it to. Did he love Joe? Like for realsies? If he actually loved Joe, would he keep doing this?
Frustrated with himself, he restrained. As easy as it would be to continue this charade, he knew that the time had come to stop. Even if he couldn’t be sure about Joe’s feelings- he knew his own at this point- as much as he hated to admit it.
“You stopped.” Teddy whistled.
“I can’t do this to him again. If it’s real then…I need to stop. For both our sakes.”
“Probably for the best.” Teddy responded. “Now get in there and have your fun. You earned it.”
“I think I will.” Jacob responded. A giddy feeling washed over him. Did he do the right thing?
