Seconds passed and he still offered no words to me.
“Can you please talk? I mean damn.” I took in a deep breath feeling my throat ache as I swallowed down my emotions.
“I still feel you deep inside of me, Kenric. I don’t know if that’s a good thing or something I should be scared shitless of. I feel crazy for?—”
“Liking me?” He cut me off taking the words right out of my mouth.
“You feel crazy for wanting me, you feel all this confliction as your mind plays tricks on you. Your struggling little owl, I see it in your eyes. I’m mad at some of your thoughts, so I remain silent, so you won’t think I’m this insane lunatic that I’ll never deny being.” He scoffed.
“What are my thoughts, Kenric?” I sat all the way up, not caring that the ice pack slipped from between my legs. The coldness had turned painful then numb, it felt good but a conversation between Kenric and I would help me establish some things to soothe all the thoughts that were running rampant in my mind.
Kenric stood to his feet, then came to sit in front of me. His kicked his leg halfway up onto the bed as he sat sideways looking at me.
“You want to leave, but you’re leaving to nothing. That’s not my arrogancy, Mira, it’s what anyone in your position would think. You loved the way I made your body respond to me. How I make the pussy talk disrespectfully. You’ve been scolding yourself because you feel like you’ve lost your vision on escaping…although it’s pointless. If I want to keep you here,Mira…you won’t get free. Everybody in this building love their life, they know that if they helped or watched you go without my permission, they’d lose their life.” He spat out coldly.
“Then you have thoughts of money, you probably want to figure a way to ask me for a job so you can stack up to have something if you did get freedom.” He chuckled dryly.
Chills ran up my spine as he coldly kept his eyes locked with mine.How can a man so fine, be so dark, controlling, and obsessed with a girl like me?
“Then how about you help me, Kenric.” I sighed shakily.
“Let me go, but you help me financially. Give me a job, I’ll play the violin for you…I can come back here every day to do whatever you ask of me. I just want to be granted my rights of freedom.” I pleaded feeling tears well up in my eyes.
“Where will you live?” He asked.
“That’s a part of you helping me. I know this might sound far-fetched, hell…maybe it is. I was thinking you can help me into a place of my own since it’s your fault why I won’t have a place to go back to. At least you’ll still have access to me. I just don’t want to be forced to stay here, with chains on my body whenever you want me to walk around this place with you. I like being outdoors, doing normal stuff.” My words trailed off.
I really didn’t know what the hell I liked but I knew I didn’t like the idea of me being forced to stay somewhere like here. When I was free, I liked to venture off into nature a lot. I loved going to the beach, parks, and just walking feeling the air. Sad to say, I was just as robotic as Kenric. I worked my ass off to survive, always. In order to have food and a roof over my head, I had to work two jobs.
I missed the only person I considered a friend. Yvette crazy ass kept me smiling even when I felt like the world was against me. She got me the job at that strip club and always made sure I was good even when I turned down her help because it wasn’twho I was. Here I sat in front of a man that had his mouth clamped shut as he listened to me practically beg him for help.
That was something new, I never begged anybody for a thing. Maybe that was the problem to begin with.
“Why are you silent?” I pressed.
“I don’t know Mira…You got a lot of thoughts, and I’ve got my own battling inside of my mind right now. No matter the amount of medicine that I take don’t simmer the strong urge to keep you here with me.” He stated.
“It’s wrong!” I yelled.
“Was it wrong when I entered you?” He tilted his head cockily.
My body heated up as I thought back to how he stroked my pussy with perfect precision, how he kissed, licked and took control over my mind and body.
“Let’s talk about that then.” I sighed roughly.
Kenric’s cold gaze lightened up, he looked over at me like he was still inside of me, and my body reacted. Goosebumps spread along my arms. I realized again that I was bare of any clothes, I sat comfortably in front of him no longer trying to cover myself and shield my body from him seeing me like this. What was the point? He saw me at my worst. Even when I did try to cover my body before sex, he knocked my hands away and tended to my body like it was made for him. Kenric placed his hand on the mattress like he was grounding himself.
Kenric’s gaze locked onto mine with a ferocity that unraveled everything I thought I understood about desire. His eyes were dark, intense, hungry, as if he was drinking in every shape and imperfection of me. There was a raw, unmasked yearning behind that look—a silent promise that he wanted more than just my body, he wanted the chaos and softness and scars I tried to hide. The air pulsed between us, heavy with everything unsaid, and Ifelt myself melting under the weight of that hunger, unable to look away.
“Are you just going to stare at me all night…are talk to me so we can decompress and come to some sort of agreement?”
I reached down and moved the ice pack away from between my legs. I scooted towards him and stopped when I noticed his disposition in my movements.
“Kenric,” I softened my voice.
“Please, talk to me.” I pleaded.
He blinked once, then again. He clicked his teeth, and Josie made an angry hoot noise then flew up off of him. She made sure to slap him in the face with her wing before soaring towards the open roof. Kenric looked up at her as I took in his flawless chocolate complexion.
