“I will Doctor Rourke,” Lillian answered with a shrug. She stepped out of the room as Elizabeth closed her eyes.
The rain was coming down harder now, and the weather prediction was that it was going to continue through the night. The remnants of the hurricane giving its final farewell. She took a bus to her apartment despite the fact that it was only a couple of blocks away, but with this rain she would have been soaked within a few steps, even with the use of her umbrella.
She climbed the stairs to her apartment, the power was out in the building still, but that didn’t surprise her. The apartment was dark and stuffy. Weight settled over her as she walked in. It was so empty. Lillian had never bothered much with décor, and the bare walls and empty space was suddenly oppressive. Her mind wandered back to Jade. She knew that any idea of a relationship would probably only end in heartache, but she would be lying to herself if she said she didn’t miss the woman already.
Elizabeth’s words came back to her, to trust her intuition, that sometimes you have to do what feels right. Why was she so conflicted? What felt right was running to Jade and throwing herself at her feet, but that could never be. Could it? It’s true that their jobs were difficult and time-consuming, but that was something that Jade would understand more than anyone else.Still, they worked together, and didn’t that go against every “rule” about relationships? What happens when they get in a fight? Or worse yet, break up? It’s not like they didn’t fight already.
Lillian knew that she built walls around herself to stay safe, to keep herself from feeling vulnerable, but Jade wasn’t here pounding on the door. She was giving Lillian space, she was letting her decide what she wanted to do next. Lillian froze as the thought penetrated. Jade wasn’t forcing Lillian to take down her walls, she was just asking to be let in. No one had ever done that before, they either tried to force her to be someone she was not or they ignored her completely. Jade was different.
Sometimes you have to do what feels right,the words echoed in her mind. This cold, bare apartment didn’t feel right, but Jade did, no matter how hard Lillian tried to deny it. Twice now she had woken up in Jade’s arms, and both times it felt like home. So much more than this apartment, so much more than the hospital or the operating room. Jade felt like home. She felt safe. Jade challenged her at every step, she knew that—she also knew that it had made her into the elite doctor she was. Jade knew her inside and out and had told her, hadtouchedher like Lillian was something special, something precious.
Lillian had to stop lying to herself. She was trying to protect herself from something that wasn’t dangerous; she was trying to protect herself from something perfect, and she would be a fool to let it slip away.
Without thinking, she turned and went back out the door, barely thinking to lock it behind her. She rushed out into the pouring rain and was almost instantly soaked to the bone. The streets were dark without the power to the streetlights, though the emergency lights were illuminated. She rushed down the street, the rain pounding against her, deafening her to everything around her. She turned the corner, and Jade’sapartment building came into view. She did not allow herself a chance to second guess what she was doing, she went to the door and pounded on it like a madwoman. When nothing happened, she pounded again.
Jade opened the door, her eyes wide with shock at Lillian standing there dripping on her doorstep, but Lillian didn’t give her a chance to speak. She took Jade by the arms and kissed her, hard, dripping water all over her entryway. She pushed her inside and kicked the door closed behind her.
Jade pulled back and looked at her, and Lillian felt a twist of fear in her stomach that Jade would kick her back out onto the street. She was acting rash, but she didn’t care, she would do whatever Jade wanted as long as she could remain a part of her life. Jade shook her head softly then kissed Lillian again, slipping her tongue between her teeth.
Jade’s pajamas quickly became soaked with the rain dripping from every inch of Lillian. She kicked off her sodden shoes and pulled Jade against her again. Hands and lips and tongues flew everywhere, heat pulsed from every inch of Lillian despite the wet cold. Jade pulled her shirt over her head and dropped it to the floor in a wet heap. Goosebumps covered her skin as Jade struggled to pull her wet pants down around her hips, adding them to the heap of wet clothes. Jade’s hands felt like warm embers touching Lillian’s bare skin, setting fire to each of her nerve endings.
As Jade unclasped her bra and tossed it to the side, Lillian’s nipples were hard and peaked from the cold and excitement. She slipped the now-wet pajamas from Jade’s shoulders, running her hands over Jade’s smooth skin. She pulled her body close, the heat burning through both of them.
Jade spun Lillian around and shoved her toward the bedroom, kicking the door shut behind them. She pushed Lillian down onto the bed and fell on top of her, straddling herwaist. Lillian’s chest pounded with excitement as she looked up at Jade. She leaned forward and hooked her arms beneath Jade’s legs, pulling her forward until she was almost sitting on Lillian’s face. Lillian pushed two fingers inside of her and used her other hand to pull her closer until her tongue could reach Jade’s swollen clit. Jade threw back her head and grabbed onto the headboard, rolling her hips against Lillian’s mouth. Lillian pumped her fingers harder and faster as Jade rolled against her tongue, but she still wanted more. She thrust her fingers inside Jade again and again until Jade was crying out in pleasure, her muscles clamping hard around Lillian’s hand. Jade leaned over, reaching into her nightstand drawer, and Lillian’s pulse raced. Jade pulled out a shaft that looked like it was made from rubber or silicone with straps around it, and Lillian gasped. She took it from her and pushed the shaft deep inside Jade, who threw her head back and cried out again. Lillian maneuvered Jade until she settled over Lillian’s hips and strapped the pieces around her while it was still inside Jade. Then she flipped her over so that she was lying on top of her, their chests pressed together as she began to roll her hips. She buried her face in Jade’s breasts, biting and sucking at her nipples as she thrust into her again and again, Jade moaning with each deep thrust.
Only when Jade was screaming in pleasure again did Lillian begin to slow down. At this point they were both soaked, with sweat and rain and their own juices. Lillian rolled over, the shaft springing free from Jade, and she looked at Lillian with a gleam in her eyes.
“My turn,” Jade said breathlessly and unhooked the piece from Lillian’s hips. She strapped it to herself before Lillian could protest and took Lillian by the hips. She turned her to face the headboard and lifted her ass into the air. Lillian gasped in pleasure as Jade played at her opening with the tip.
“This what you want?” Jade teased as she pushed just past Lillian’s entrance.
“Yes,” Lillian breathed as Jade slowly pushed inside her, stretching her around the shaft.
“You want me?” Jade asked and ran her hand up Lillian’s back to grip her shoulder.
“Yes,” Lillian gasped again as she gripped the headboard, her whole body burned with need, with desire. Nothing could stop their chemistry, their passion, their complete desire.
“Say it,” Jade demanded and thrust deep into Lillian.
“I want you,” Lillian cried out.
“Say it again,” Jade demanded, pulling slowly back out.
“I fucking want you, Jade,” Lillian moaned, and Jade thrust into her again. She gripped Lillian’s shoulders and thrust deep into her again and again as Lillian screamed in pleasure.
She pulled out, and turned Lillian to face her, opening her legs and sliding Lillian on top of her lap. Lillian rolled her hips to allow the shaft to penetrate deep within her, rolling her head back as she gripped Jade’s shoulders.
“Say it,” Jade said as she rolled against Lillian.
Lillian rolled her hips against Jade, whose hands held them in place.
“I want you, Jade,” Lillian said, then covered Jade’s mouth with a deep kiss as she rolled her hips against her over and over again. Jade used her hands to guide Lillian’s rhythm against her, bouncing against the bed, and causing the headboard to knock against the wall.
“I love you,” Jade whispered in Lillian’s ear. Heat coursed through Lillian beyond anything she’d ever felt before. “I love you,” she whispered again as Lillian rode her harder.
“I love you, Jade,” Lillian answered as the orgasm wracked her. She screamed in pleasure riding each wave against the shaft Jade wore. Jade squeezed her hips almost hard enough to bruiseas Lillian rode out the last of the orgasm. Finally, both soaked and panting, Lillian fell more than slid from Jade’s lap and landed in a heap on the bed.
Jade pulled off the shaft and set it on the nightstand before falling into the bed next to her. “I really do love you, Lillian,” Jade said between breaths. “I think I have for a while now.”
