Samantha: And you’re serious about this? About him?
Janie: Yes, although I’m not the non-serious one, here
Samantha: True but someone may have already texted me about you !!!
Janie: He did?!
Samantha: [mouth zipped emoji]
Janie: Well, I really like him
Samantha: Eeeee!!! I cannot.
Samantha: This is just so random! And great!
Samantha: You guys are so opposite though, my mind is blown
Samantha: [mind blown emoji] [mind blown emoji] [mind blown emoji]
Janie: He’s fun. He makes me laugh. Pushes me out of my comfort zone.
Samantha: And he’s so handsome, like his brother [heart eyes emoji]
Janie: I can’t argue there.
Samantha: AHHH!
Samantha: AH! I can’t stop!
Samantha: !!! AH!
Janie: Please, find a way.
Samantha: Ok, ok. So, I guess this means you’re finally, officially over Theo?
Janie: Yup
My heart squeezes again. I ignore it. I am over Theo. I’ve got to be after everything he put me through. I am. I’m just not used to the idea that I’m actually done with him after almost five years. Definitely not used to talking about it.
Samantha: Yasssssss
Samantha: That man was never anywhere near good enough for you
Janie: Yeah, hindsight, etc.
Samantha: Well please tell my sister ASAP so I can bother all of them with my exclamation points
Janie: lol ok
I tap out of my conversation with Sam and switch to the text thread with her sister. Three months since our last text. I don’t scroll up because I don’t want to see it. Years of deep, cherished friendship reduced to generic messages about holidays and birthdays with iPhone reactions. Not even any memes or gifs in months.
And now I’m going to start talking to her again with a big fat lie.
Great.
Just great.
I inhale and brace myself.
