I couldn’t do anything but lay my head back on the headrest and sulk. Reggie quickly got in the driver’s seat and pulled off, the whole time holding my hand. The affectionate gesture made me emotional.
“It’s gon’ be okay, baby. Don’t cry. I’m here with you now,” he tried to console. “Come on, let’s get you something to eat. I gotta get you away from all this negative energy and conflict. I see what you mean about your mom. She a handful.”
“See what I mean. I really need to figure some things out ‘cause there’s no way I can stay in that house with her. My parents gifted me a condo, but my mom reneged and took it back. She said that I was too irresponsible to stay there. Talking about, she don’t want me turning it into a whore house.”
“Not a whore house! Wow!”
“Exactly! My freaking head is pounding. Let’s stop talking about that lady please.”
“You’re welcomed to stay at the hotel for as long as you need to. I can even get you your own suite if you want more privacy.”
“Thank you! I appreciate that because Lord knows I’m not trying to be at the house with her.”
“Let’s go get you something to eat. Your head probably hurt ‘cause you stressin’. Just lay back and relax, baby girl. I gotchu.”
Reggie turned the radio up and the smooth melodies ofAcquaintedby The Weekend flowed through the Bose speakers throughout his car. Reaching over, he took my hand into his and held it as I closed my eyes and became one with the music.
CHAPTER 14
@Mrs. Nelson
#FourMonthsLater
After Terrance got sick,my life had continued to go from bad to worse. Terrance was now back at home with around the clock nursing care because he still was wheelchair bound. He had been doing a really great job recovering from his stroke for the most part but was still not able to walk without assistance. His therapist was impressed with him because his speech was becoming clearer every day and the strength in his left hand was slowly coming back. He was able to stand and with assistance and he could take a few steps before having to sit back in the wheelchair. He was recovering at a rapid pace no doubt.
I was extremely happy and proud that Terrance’s health was improving, yet I was very unhappy in my marriage. He and I hadn’t talked about my affair with Brandon since we first argued about it on Tatiana’s birthday. I understood that his main focus was to remain stress free and to work on getting better, but we desperately needed to figure out what we were going to do. As the days continued to pass the more it was clear that ourmarriage was over. Our relationship was very surface making it uncomfortable and extremely unbearable to deal with. On top of that, I still had the mayor riding my back because the judge’s wife had filed for divorce and was still threatening to leak the affair to the press. She was evidently taking the affair the hardest out of all of us and wanted to make and prove a point. If that were to happen, it could do some major damage to my reputation as well as Brandon’s. I didn’t need the public thinking I used my pussy as power to help persuade a few cases I worked during my tenure. When the truth was, I cheated because I was lonely and craved the attention.
Things took a turn for the worst for Chelle, and she ended up losing her job at the firm not too long after I left. We both believe she was let go on the account of her acquaintance with me and that was a bunch of bull crap if you ask me. No one knew about our affair, but everyone knew we were very close friends. Chelle wound up having to move out of her place because the rent and bills were hard to manage now that she was in between jobs. I felt like it was ultimately my fault, so to help her out, I let her stay at the condo we originally purchased for Tatiana.
Terrance was disappointed in me at first for not letting Tatiana move into the condo since it was originally her birthday gift, but she wound up moving in with her boyfriend, so things ended up working in me and Chelle’s favor. Terrance knew that Chelle and I were close, he just didn’t know we were intimately close, so when I presented to him about her needing a place, he saw it as us helping out a friend in need.
I had fallen in love with Chelle but was not ready to come out to the world about our relationship. I had become so overwhelmed and stressed that I’d been having problems regulating my blood pressure. Right after Terrance got sick, I wound up having to go to the doctor because I started having very intense migraines that wouldn’t let up. My doctordiagnosed me with high blood pressure and said that I was experiencing cluster migraines. He put me on medication for it and to be honest I couldn’t really tell if it was working or not because I still experienced about the same if not more headaches, nausea, and occasional neck stiffness. Basically, my blood pressure was being managed by medications, but my stress level hadn’t decreased in the least bit at all. I continued to worry about everything on a daily basis, and it felt like I was not able to catch any breaks. The only solace I had was when I was with Chelle.
“A nickel for your thoughts,” Chelle said breaking me from my thoughts.
“I believe it’s a penny for your thoughts,” I giggled.
“Same difference. You knew what I was talking about. You always have to be so technical. What you layin’ there thinkin’ about?”
It was Tuesday evening, and I was at the condo spending time with Chelle. I didn’t have to worry about Terrance suspecting anything because he knew we were friends, and our relationship wasn’t on the best of terms so me being gone from home was peaceful for the both of us. He was so focused on walking again and doing his therapy that I believe he didn’t even notice when I wasn’t home. Since he couldn’t walk, Terrance moved into one of our spare rooms that was on the first floor of our home. We didn’t have an elevator so there was no way in hell he could get upstairs to our bedroom and I was good with that. It worked out perfectly, yet I still felt stifled when I was home for too long, so I stayed a few nights out a week with Chelle. It had become a weekly routine.
“Just thinking about life. I have so much on my mind.”
“You gotta stop stressing, Tanya. Stress kills, you know that, baby. The last thing I want is for something to happen to you. Ilove you so much I don’t know where I would be or what I would do without you.”
Hearing Chelle tell me she loved me warmed my soul. Tears filled my eyes as I became overcome with emotion. I was truly happy with Chella, yet still very terrified to come out about our relationship to the world making it hard for me to manage my feelings. Chelle wanted nothing more than for me to not stress, yet the fact I had to hide my true feelings for her from the world was stressing me out also. It was no secret that Chelle wanted to be with me. She was open about her sexual orientation and couldn’t wait to let it be known about us, yet she respected my timing. We meshed well together and had the true makings of a solid foundation and relationship. We just couldn’t act on it openly.
I told her that I couldn’t leave Terrance at his lowest point. I didn’t need to carry any more guilt than I already was. God forbid I were to leave, and he had a health setback. No chance in hell I was letting that happen. I planned to wait until he got a little bit better before I would file for a divorce. Until then, what Chelle and I had, had to remain a secret.
“I love you, too, you know that. I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t. It’s just a lot going on is all.”
“I know, sweetcakes. Let me help you ease your mind.”
We were lying in Chelle’s bed watchingBridgertonon Netflix. It was on a hot and steamy scene where Lady Bridgerton and the Duke were having sex. The scene that was playing, Lady Bridgerton switched positions for the first time and got on top and rode the Duke until he came inside of her. It was a very intense love scene that aided in heightening our mood. The scene was very intense because the last thing the Duke wanted was to cum inside of Lady Bridgerton, but he succumbed to the pleasures of what he desired most. What captivated me most was that while that scene played in the background, I was in themidst of succumbing to the pleasures that Chelle was giving me. My body had grown to desire her in ways that I had never felt for another person before. It was scary, yet very addicting.
We began to passionately make out as we helped each other remove our clothes. Once we both were naked as the day we were born, Chelle went to work. She knew just how to take my mind and body to levels I had never reached with a man before sexually, emotionally and mentally. Spreading my lower lips then covering my delicate flower with her mouth she gently sucked my clit while fingering me. It only took seconds later for me to cream in her mouth.
I used to gag at the thought of women giving each other oral pleasure. It was something that no one could ever convince me that I would do or want done to me, but Chelle… she showed me the way! One of the best sexual experiences I had ever had, was making love to her and what amazed me the most was how comfortable I felt pleasuring her body as well.
