For a moment, we stay locked together, foreheads touching, sharing the same air. Her fingers trace the line of my jaw tenderly.
I need her to know me.
The real me.
I don’t want to die without her knowing who I am.
Chapter 14
Lena
Itrace a scar on his jaw.
I remember there are several other scars on his chest. They all tell a tale of a life of violence.
“I wish I could’ve protected the boy who got these,” I whisper.
His breath catches. Just for a moment.
“Lena…”
There’s a raspy tone I haven’t heard before.
He’s still inside me. I don’t want to move.
I pull back a few inches and look at him.
“Anton.”
“I’m not who you think I am.”
I blink, unsure whether this is the beginning of a goodbye or a confession. Is he going to tell me he’s got a serious girlfriend at home? Or he’s a spy for Mikhail.
“My name isn’t Anton.”
My hand stills over his heart. “What?”
He swallows, then sits up, carefully removing me from his body.
I adjust my panties, suddenly feeling exposed.
Anton quickly tucks away his dick and does up his jeans.
“Anton?” I whisper his name.
His gaze is faraway. I don’t know what he’s looking at but I can see something on his face. He’s relaxed just a little.
“It was supposed to be a clean start,” he says. “A new life. But nothing about any of this is clean.”
I have no idea what he’s saying, but part of me knew. I can’t explain how I knew, but he’s a walking, talking secret.
It’s like I always knew he wasn’t giving me his whole self.
“Are you married?” I ask. The words are so low I barely hear them myself.
“No.”
“Girlfriend? Kids?”