Lost in my thoughts, I had never been more thankful when the doctor came to my room letting me know that I had been discharged. I was more than ready to go home and begin my life as a family. I began to wonder if I would be a good mother. I had no doubt that Xavier would be a great parent. I wasn’t sure what I was so worried about. Together we would be awesome.
Xavier had pulled the car to the front of the hospital where Joshua and I were waiting. As I sat in the wheelchair, I couldn’t help but look down at his tiny face. He had so many of Xavier’s features, which I was deeply grateful for. Hearing the car door close, I looked up to see that Xavier was already rounding the car. I didn’t want to let go of this little guy, but knew that I couldn’t hold on to him if I wanted him to be safe.
When we finally arrived home, Xavier opened the condo door while I held Joshua. Stepping aside, Xavier smiled at me and said, “I have a surprise for you and Joshua.”
Heading toward the nursery, he slowly opened the double glass doors, which hadn’t been there before. I thought it was a wonderful addition to the nursery, which would allow me to keep an eye on Joshua when he was sleeping. As wonderful as the doors were, what was on the inside was even more breathtaking. The nursery was beautiful. It was as though Xavier knew exactly how I wanted the room to look, even down to the mobile that hung over his crib.
Taking Joshua from my arms, he placed him gently inside the crib and turned the dial on the mobile, which began to play ‘When You Wish Upon a Star.’ Joshua stared at the little stuffed animals as they went in a circle. Soon his eyes closed, and he fell asleep. Xavier turned and looked at me with a grin from ear to ear. Rubbing his hands together, he walked over to me, lifted me completely off the floor, and carried me to our room.
Whispering in my ear, he stated eagerly, “I think we need to work on a sister for Joshua.”
Looking him in the eyes, he was more than perfect. Placing my lips to his ear, I whispered, “Absolutely.”
