A ripple of something went through her, maybe trepidation, maybe anticipation.Perhaps a combination.
“That sounds scary.”
“We can watch for a bit and then you can decide whether or not you’re interested.”Nathan moved his fingers soothingly.“Most of all, I mean for this to be about your pleasure and you gaining confidence in yourself as a sexual woman and as a hot little sub.If this isn’t enjoyable for you, we should stop right now.You can get dressed, turn on a movie, make some popcorn and open a bottle of wine.No harm.I won’t hold it against you.”
She exhaled.“No.It’s not that…”
“Tell me.”He looked deeply into her eyes and gently massaged her.
“I’m not sure why the hell I’m struggling when this is what I want.I just didn’t have any idea it would be this difficult.”
“You’re incredibly intelligent, Kelsey.Driven.Determined.It’s not a surprise that you’re conflicted.You made certain decisions about the way the world works and the way you needed to behave in order to succeed.And you’ve had spectacular results.There aren’t many women in the kind of position you are right now.You’re poised to go wherever you want.You’ve been strategic and focused.And maybe you think you’re betraying your own principles every time you agree to do as I want.Tell me this.When you did that little strip-tease and tossed your skirt on my head, how did that feel?”
“Exhilarating.”
“Until you thought that independent women don’t do those kinds of things.”
“There could be some truth to that.”
“Here’s a new truth.Independent women get to do what the hell they want.It’s when there’s no choice that there’s a problem.Did your friend Andi judge you?”
“No.”
“Then why are you?”
The words hung between them.
“Your call.Either that pussy hair is coming off and you’re going to get the spanking of your life or we can watchThe Godfather.”
“Don’t take sides against the family, or something like that?”
The line of dialogue wasn’t exact, but it was damn fucking close.Close enough for him to want to kiss her.
“That has particular meaning to you, doesn’t it?”she guessed.
“Probably applies to a lot of families.”
“True.And you feel a special obligation to yours.”
Nathan nodded.Kelsey had remembered what he’d told her about what drove him.Ms.Kelsey Lane went up again in his estimation.“So what will it be?The Godfather?We could do a marathon, go straight to number two as soon as it finishes?”
“I have uncles and more male cousins than I can count.We have boy movie marathons every holiday.I’d rather have a toothache.”
He grinned.“Is that your answer?Or do you need to discuss it some more?”
“You helped me sort it out.Thank you.”She put two fingers on his mouth.
Nathan kissed them.“In that case, my sub, into the bathtub.”He pulled her onto her toes and he saw it…the answering spark in response to his command.
And it fed the fire growing in him.
Hungrily, he kissed her.Consumed her.He took from her, gave to her.He wanted her to know how much she meant to him, how much he appreciated her submission.
When he ended it, her lips were swollen, her eyes sleepy.“Maybe I should fuck you now.”
“Maybe you should.”
Despite the temptation, he held on to control, and not for his sake, but because he wanted her to know, especially so early in their D/s play, that he meant what he said and that he wasn’t easily dissuaded.
