She wasn’t accustomed to this.In fact, the opposite was true for her.More than once, she’d lied and said she’d had an orgasm so she could spare a man’s feelings.
“Tell me what you’re thinking and feeling.”
“The last one stung a little,” she admitted.“The pain went away quickly, especially once you brushed your hand across my chest.”
“Are you sexually aroused?”
Lord save me.“I’m getting there,” she admitted.
“How sensitive are your nipples?”
She wondered if she’d ever had a conversation this personal.“I’m not even sure how to answer that.”
“Can you come from having them touched?”
“I honestly have no idea,” she confessed.“I’m totally embarrassed.”
“Don’t be.That’s not my intent.I just want to know about you.”
“I’m sure you’re accustomed to…” She took a breath then began again.“I’m sure you’re accustomed to playing with women who are far more experienced than I am.”
He raised his eyebrows.“Are you a virgin?”
“No.But there’s no way anyone would consider me worldly.”
“If you want to proceed, we can go as slow as you want.”
The world felt a little bit as if it had tipped.
“I’d start by getting you naked,” he said, as if sensing her unasked question.“Ask you to stand still while I looked at you.I’d touch you, learn what you like.”
“What about sex?”
“It can be part of a scene for some people.For us, now?No.I wouldn’t want you concerned about that.I’ve already told you I want to fuck you.I would prefer it be part of a BDSM scene but that’s not a requirement.I’d happily give you vanilla sex if you wanted it.”
She wasn’t certain what to say.
“There’s no pressure, certainly no hurry.If you don’t want to sleep with me, I won’t hold that against you.”
The problem was, she did want to.It would be smart to go back to the house, go through her presentation then get back on the road.But she knew she’d always wonder.She hadn’t gotten to be a success in business by being afraid of risk.“I didn’t think I liked pain at all until that third swat.”The paddle still hung from one of his fingers.He was standing in that commanding stance of his.No matter how reassuring his tone, there was an underlying steel that she now knew was part of his dominant nature.“I’m curious,” she finally admitted.“Curious but cautious.”
“You have a right to be.Trust is built over time.”
She scowled.“So you’re saying I shouldn’t trust you?”
“I’m saying you should ask for whatever you need to feel safe.Avoiding restraints?Keeping your underwear on initially?”
After leaving work yesterday evening, she’d stopped by the Galleria and bought some new bras and panties from a fancy boutique.She’d rationalized that she needed some since she hadn’t purchased any in at least a year.But the truth was there.She’d been thinking of Cade when she’d slid her credit card across the counter.
“Having me undress you?Would you like that?Or would you prefer to strip for me?”
“I…”
“You can say yellow or red at any point,” he reminded her.“Or walk out the door.”
While she decided, he put the paddle back on the wall.
“I want the help, this time,” she said when he returned.“And I want to stay in my underwear.”
