CHAPTER10
James
“So,that wasn’t how I expected the evening to go,” I say casually to my husband after closing the door behind Grayson.
“I know, me too,” Cas says, with a grin. “I was expecting Mexican. But the chicken was delicious.”
“Cas, come on.”
“What?”
“Why didn’t you tell me you were going to bring women and sex up with
Caroline?”
“Because I wasn’t sure I was,” he says. “I was just going to see how things played out.”
There’s a little squawk from the baby monitor and Cas perks up. He doesn’t go as far as waking Noah up to spend extra time with him, but he loves when Noah needs a little extra attention in the evenings. He’s jealous of all the time I get with our baby boy, so he happily heads in at the slightest sound.
I used to worry that he’d spoil Noah, but our son is simply fully secure in how loved he is and knows that we’re there for him no matter what, or when.
I follow Cas into Noah’s room and prop my shoulder against the door jamb, watching as Cas lifts Noah and nuzzles his face in Noah’s neck.
“Hey, sweet baby,” he croons.
God, watching my husband’s thick muscular arms, covered in tattoos, bunch as he cuddles our baby is so hot. I move further into the room.
“You want to fuck Caroline?” I ask him bluntly.
I’ll admit that it took me a second to catch on to what Cas was doing, but once I did, the lust had hit me hot and hard.
I love sharing women with Cas. It’s always amazing. We love women. We love fucking women. We love making women come over and over. And it makes the sex between the two of us so damned hot.
But Caroline? She’s different.
My attraction to her is stronger than any other woman Cas and I have ever hit on and taken home. I don’t know if that’s a good thing. I need to be fully transparent with him about it.
“I would love to fuck, Caroline,” he says honestly. He’s got Noah up on his shoulder, his big hand covering Noah’s back. He’s swaying gently and Noah is already falling back to sleep.
He’d probably fall back to sleep on his own if we just left him alone, but Cas figures Noah won’t need him to cuddle him when he’s off to college, so he won’t listen about letting Noah comfort himself. I just shake my head and smile.
“But even more,” Cas continues. “I’d love to watch you fuck Caroline.”
I feel like I just took a big gulp of whiskey. Heat courses through me and my cock hardens. “Cas.”
“You want to, right?” he asks.
“With you. I would never…”
“I know.” He takes a step toward me and puts a hand on my shoulder, squeezing. “I know, babe. I’m not worried about that.”
I cover his hand and put my other hand on Noah’s back next to his. “Are you sure that’s a good idea? She’s not just some girl. We have a history. There were real emotions there, even if we were young. We’re not starting at square one with her like we usually do.”
“Therearereal emotions there, right?” Cas asks. “Not just were? In the past?”
“Cas.” I blow out a breath. “I love you.”
He smiles. “I know that. I am not worried about that. I love you, too. And I love our life. Everything we’re building here. I also love our sex life. I could and would happily fuck just you for the rest of my life.”
